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It's 2:30am. Im laying in bed with my laptop on me. And my boyfriend snoring lightly beside me.. Yes, I spose it must suck to have a geeky/insomniac girlfriend, but you get used to it!!
I spent hours last night, to the point of 5am, researching and joining fanlistings. Which you can now see with their pretty little icon links xx
Although I researched and only joined the ones I really like (to the point of unhealthy obsession.. Eg, read the post on the 14th of this month haha) I know I will soon end up being a fanlisting whore and join all and every little anime or game or even.. Cupcake fanlisting out there. Well.. Atleast the little icon grid will look cute with all the smexy things blinking at you..
Yeah. Just a little update before I pop my sleeping pills. Probably update while at uni slacking off learning something useful.
And a happy birthday to Raygan this week : )
14-04-09
On the subject of Vincent Valentine:
Devon:
Damn, Ninja/magician/gunslinger/vampire/pirate. If anything like that ever lived the Earth would implode into a blackhole of coolness. You just can't safely pack that much cool into one person.
Raine:
Either implode into a blackhole of coolness or explode into me.
Either or, but I'd take that chance
Devon:
lmao, fangirl.
It's true. I am shamelessly obsessed and in love with Vincent Valentine. He started my vampire obsession! And yes.. Everything else he is cool at. I think Devon summed him up pretty well. Well, he forgot SEXMACHINE but that's ok, he's male.
Been talking to Rob recently :O it's awesome. We've both changed but still the same. Its funny. But cool. Such a relief we can still talk and get along.
Been doing so much uni work. More than ever in my life haha. Not saying much but yes... Although it's only been for one subject! If I can just move it onto the others I will be set.
But argh. It's 4am. So I'm going to leave and go to sleep. Just thought I would update with only nice things, for a change.
13-04-09
I'm sick! Noes..
The worst thing about being sick I reckon.. Is smelling bad. Well, you know, the sick smell. Atleast I've only been sick over the weekend, and so I havn't had to see anyone except the people I live with. There's a plus.
Oh. And I keep having stupid annoying dreams, featuring that stupid annoying guy. Ok fine, he's not stupid and he's not annoying. Only I am annoying, when I keep having dreams, and so, he is annoying. Makes sense?
On a positive note, atleast I know Alex is talking to me, and in fact was never pissed off with me. Unfortunately not the same can be said of Ben. Hm. So I don't know if that really is a positive note, as the two seem to cancel each other out right.
I realised something this past week or so. I'm not... Completely.. Happy. Well rarely anyone is. But I mean, it's a very rare thing for me to actually feel happy. And I only noticed this because when I do I'm so ecstatic. Sure, I'm always throwing smileys around online and hearts and xx's. And in real life I am always smiling at people and joking around. But that's just it.. Smiling AT people. Not smiling for me. Whatever.. I hate thinking about shit like that because it just sounds so deppo and OHNO family occasionally read this. Don't take me too seriously ok. But none of this is news to me. The only part that's news is that I realise.. And when I look around... All the others I know who are my age, aren't like this. Maybe the ones who are 30's, 40's.. But that's the thing. I'm not that age. And maybe I should start acting like a 20yrold.
Maybe.
Because then I look at some I know.. And think.. Why the hell would I want to be so stupid?
Whatever.. I just.. And I never felt anyway. I never felt like I fit in, anywhere. So that hasn't changed.
06-04-09
First post for April.
Well, it's not like it's the end of April, so I'm improving.
Eeeh. On the relationship front, a bit... Not happy. Whatever. I'll work it out as usual..
On the friend front, Ben and Alex still are not speaking to me. Well, I'm not even making an effort to talk to Alex.. For various reasons. But Ben, all attempts seem to be not causing any response. And yes, if he wants to be like that fine I suppose.. It's not like I can do anything else short of stalking. And I'm just not going to go there. I'll survive as usual. It's a major hurt right now but nothing else I can do..
Uni front.. Is ok. Well, I don't think I'm failing anything. Actually did some work today, as in lots of editorial stuffs. Need to make a new website for the documentation blog though. Hm.. Lots of things I need to do.
And lastly work. It's ok. Gee, I say that about everything though. Well, this Mel chick is back, shes the one who had the huge issue with me (rage issue) which she seems to be over but now she has a rage issue with everyone else who works with us, the other girls and Wal. Well maybe she still has a rage issue with me but I'm too nice on the surface in comparison for her to make herself verbal.
I know, why do we bother if there's so much added drama. The reason, I don't know, I'm not the boss. If I was, I would change a few things really.. Hah..
Lastly, in general. I'm bleh. I'm liking that I'm speaking to a few people I had only barely spoken to before. Well I lie, not a few people, only two haha. But they rock and I knew they rocked but for some reason I'd never gotten anything past a hi or how's it going.
I'm also happy I didn't freak Raygan out with the millions of crochet animals I "web-threw" at her. But they are cute and the squiddy she mad was sooo cute. AND OHNO I only just found out today the awesome thing I saw for her was only available in.. Hm.. How to say without giving too much away.. Only available in one "version" and I'm unsure if this version is.. "Compatible". ... .... .... Now it sounds like I'm doing some software shit. Or breeding small animals. But it's neither!!
But anyway, yes, that was disappointing to discover.
